Practicing Non-Attachment – Ceinwen E Cariad Haydon

drift was in his blood
satisfaction out of reach
his search was on
for antidotes to boredom

domestic duties
didn’t hold a candle to
and a hundred thousand
full length prostrations

folded into mantras and mudras
on retreat
his meditations dreamt him free
of all the daily crap

meanwhile I waited
tended to his children
our youngest only three months old

I lived in hope
of happiness in his return

he presented
in his own much-resented time
talked endlessly
of tantric experiences
sat at his blesséd Teacher’s feet

he unpacked dirty laundry
handed it across to me
and remembered

he had a gift
two cheap and ugly rings
afterthoughts bought as thanks
for my chapped fingers

far from cheerful
I saw fractured writing
on my life’s climbing wall


Chenrezig, also known as Avalokitesvara, ‘One who looks with unwavering eye’ (Tibetan Buddhism)

CEINWEN E CARIAD HAYDON lives in Newcastle upon Tyne, UK, and writes short stories and poetry. She has been widely published in web magazines and in print anthologies. She graduated with an MA in Creative Writing from Newcastle University in 2017. She believes everyone’s voice counts.

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